When I realized

It was last Thursday,
When I realized..
That all these days
You simply lied...

I was taken aback,
Shattered and broken..
I trusted you completely
But my whole world was shaken...

It made me wonder,
What did you gain out of this?
But a bigger question lingered
Who was I to blame you for this??

I was broken,
That was my fault..
You never said you loved me
Who was I here to revolt?

You were right when you said,
That you lied because of me..
But how was I supposed to react
When I myself was lying to me...

Lied that I was happy,
Lied that I was still alive,
Thought that you still loved me..
Thought that we still shared the same old  vibe...

The problem was with me,
Too much expectations I had..
But why was I expecting so much?
As there were no strings attached...

As I speak of shying away,
Back to my normal small world..
You keeping knocking at my senses,
Trying to take away the leftover world...

I may still give you a chance,
Chance one more to lie to me...
Because I still love you the same way,
Because you still mean the whole world to me!!

But this time around,
I won't be shattered from another lie..
Because the heart is already broken,
Another lie won't easily defy...

Just hoping against hope,
That one day you would love me back..
But I probably won't be around,
To hold you and love you back!!!