Life as it comes

Met someone special, who thinks I am the best
Who thinks I am better than the rest
God please put some sense in the person's mind
Coz I have always been behind the rest.

Though I am not like the rest
Speaking my mind at the slightest behest
But I have learnt to be docile
To see every face I see has a smile.

Smile that is not pretentious
Smile that is not nimble
Smile that is infectious
Smile that makes other people smile.

Be kind to every kind
That's what I try to follow
And when I expect other people to do the same
They find the notion difficult to swallow.

Self retrospecting every step of the way
What I have been doing
Found that even though I am trying my best
People are still speculating.

Someone has rightly said
More often than not we are always afraid.
Afraid what people might think of our actions
And we end up not doing things thinking of their repercussions.

But someday we will have to take the leap of faith
And just do what we feel is correct
Things may still be not in place
But at least one will be at peace and let everything resurrect.

Hoping against hope
That things will fall into place
And even if it doesn't
I will still fight and try do my best.

When I realized

It was last Thursday,
When I realized..
That all these days
You simply lied...

I was taken aback,
Shattered and broken..
I trusted you completely
But my whole world was shaken...

It made me wonder,
What did you gain out of this?
But a bigger question lingered
Who was I to blame you for this??

I was broken,
That was my fault..
You never said you loved me
Who was I here to revolt?

You were right when you said,
That you lied because of me..
But how was I supposed to react
When I myself was lying to me...

Lied that I was happy,
Lied that I was still alive,
Thought that you still loved me..
Thought that we still shared the same old  vibe...

The problem was with me,
Too much expectations I had..
But why was I expecting so much?
As there were no strings attached...

As I speak of shying away,
Back to my normal small world..
You keeping knocking at my senses,
Trying to take away the leftover world...

I may still give you a chance,
Chance one more to lie to me...
Because I still love you the same way,
Because you still mean the whole world to me!!

But this time around,
I won't be shattered from another lie..
Because the heart is already broken,
Another lie won't easily defy...

Just hoping against hope,
That one day you would love me back..
But I probably won't be around,
To hold you and love you back!!!